Might have been

Of all the words of mice and men,

The saddest are: "It might have been" 

                                   Kurt Vonnegut 

And it's true. We should strive to take every opportunity, because those we miss, we spend a lifetime wondering what could have-would have happened. 

Painting beautiful futures that can never be, because we didn't dare to try. What might have been is a world of infinite futures and possibilities, all of them lost. 

So take every chance, say hello to that stranger, agree to that trip, say yes, don't hesitate and let the moment be lost. And make as few of 'might have been' moments as you possibly can. 

The River of Time

The passage of time is a strange and winding river.

It has no set path, it only travels onward. You cannot control it, and can only hope to keep your head above water, to stay afloat and let the river take you where it will. At times it will lead you into the shallows, past gentle riverbanks where willows bow their heads. Sometimes it will pull you into the deep past jagged rocks where the current is strong and river-weed swirls in the eddies of the ever-changing tide.

And through it all you can hear it, sometimes far off, and sometimes all too close; the distant roar of the waterfall that lies at the end of the river. As all my life I struggle not to drown, to admire the starlight above me, to sink into the golden sunshine as it bathes me, and to enjoy every sight that I pass by, I know the waterfall is indomitable as it is inevitable.

I have never yet seen it, but when I do I imagine it will be as beautiful as it is terrifying.
It is coming, and I cannot stop it;

 As to what lies over the other side-

That is the last great mystery.

Feeling Just the Same

I always expect somehow to feel a little different when I change age, especially to the big 21.

But of course, I feel just the same. But you know what? I had a lovely party, there was no drama, no stress. In some ways I was disappointed, how can something you have been planning for the last 6 months live up to every expectation?

But at the same time, i'm really happy. I had a great time, I was surrounded by friends who love me and made me feel so very loved. Their words, speeches, gifts and gestures had me in tears, and made me feel so very special, and so worthwhile.

I am blessed.

The beautiful pre-party lunch we had